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Friday, September 9th, 2011
9:39 pm
My boyfriend just told me I'd make a terrible mother, and totally didn't back down on that statement. =(

(1 thought | live*for*me)

Friday, May 28th, 2010
4:02 pm
he's gone. i wasn't ready.


Tuesday, January 19th, 2010
2:07 pm - Dear FDM
Thank you oh so very much for scheduling me for 7 days in a row, when I requested two of them off. One of them was only my birthday, and it's not like there's two people that desperately need hours at the front desk. Why didn't I switch, you ask? Both of them had made plans by the time I saw the schedule, I just assumed I would have off since I requested it a couple months ago, AND I had worked the 5 days previous.

I know that waking up at the crack of 10am is hard, so I completely understand when you come in an hour later than when you scheduled YOURSELF. Also, I'm glad that you decided to eat lunch right away too when you got here at noon, moving my things in the back to clear space for your work girlfriend, the special events coordinator. Oh, and it's totally cool that you ate the pastry that one of the one of the guests brought for me, it's not like it had my name on it or anything, it was just on top of the before mentioned personal items you moved.

Why did I bring a bag full of clothes with me? Cause I had to work today, I had made plans when I requested those days off a couple months ago. Since I asked you when you came in at noon if I could leave early if you weren't busy, I'll start counting out my drawer and doing paperwork. If your Peggle game and vacation plans interfere with the 10 minutes of work you actually had to do today, it's no big deal, I'll stay till 3, it's cool. Oh no, don't worry about giving me a 5 minute break or anything, it's not like I've been here since freakin 5:30 this morning by myself or anything. Oh, thanks for that too, scheduling me for a 9.5 hour day.


Your really pissed off FDS


Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
8:51 am - Starbucks rage!!
I love the time old question, "Where can I get a cup of coffee?" Cause that's never it. It's never just a cup of coffee.

Of course, I recommend our restaurant first. My spiel "Our restaurant has excellent coffee, we also do espresso drinks, and have a wide selection of pastries and bagels." For any normal person, that's it. It's fast, easy, and within 20 feet.

Often, people don't want what we have. No big deal. There's a hotel next to us with a nice cafe that just does coffee, and coffee drinks, they even serve Starbucks coffee. Again, pastries and bagels. Nope. Don't want that.

The next is a Brueger's Bagels. They just do coffee, no espresso drinks, and they have a shit ton of bagels. This is 3 city blocks away, a straight shot down our street. Less than a 5 minute walk.

Usually, this is when people get pissed, and bitchingly say to me, "I just want a cup of coffee, don't you have a Starbucks nearby? Why wouldn't you recommend that first?!"

Why yes, we do have a Starbucks. If that's what you wanted, you should have asked for it, because I'm going to tell you the closest things first. Also, when I tell you that the closest Starbucks is 7 blocks away, please don't have a heart attack like that! ...that's why I didn't tell you it first, and no, there isn't a closer one.

Now just slink away and get your regular cup of coffee in our restaurant. Yes, I see you.

(3 thought | live*for*me)

Sunday, May 10th, 2009
6:07 am
Got stuck working 3rd shift, which is complete hell on weekends.

Woman #1 and man walk across the lobby, ask a couple questions, and walk outside around 5am. Woman #2 and another man come down asking for woman #1. Hour later Woman #1 comes back, asking to use the phone cause her friend hooked up with some random guy, and had all of her stuff. Calls people, talks to her husband apparently, says she doesn't want to ratt out her friend (whos apparently cheating on her husband), and then lies to her husband and says she fell asleep in the lobby, when she disappeared with some random guy for a couple hours.

What a pair.


Thursday, March 26th, 2009
6:27 pm - sigh
mid semester slump in full swing. trying to fight the urge to skip classes. I dont mind my classes, but between trying to remember the differences between the structures of alcohols, phenols, aldehydes, ketones, thiols, carboxylic acids and amines, and trying to memorize the cranial nerves and spinal nerves, im going a little insane. Throw in all the muscles of the upper body, and i think im incapable of stuffing anything else in my head.

(1 thought | live*for*me)

Thursday, May 29th, 2008
6:27 pm
As much as I've disliked her in the past, I'm gonna lose another friend to the fucking armed forces, and it sucks.

(1 thought | live*for*me)

Saturday, May 3rd, 2008
8:50 am
why do people feel the need to walk on the side of the road PARALLEL to a sidewalk? i should run their asses over for being dumb enough to think that doing it is cool or something.

3rd shift sucks.

ive come to the conclusion that my ears must be misshapen. i just bought a new mp3 player cause i lost the charger for my other one, and this is the 7th pair of earbud headphone things ive owned, and no matter how hard i try, the damn things wont stay in my ears. perhaps it has something to do with how loudly i sing along to songs in my car. (for those of you who dont know, i had my cd player/stereo stolen from my car last year, and refuse to buy a new one for the pos.)

today i get to go to a cookout! (its raining >.<) the highlight is that my moms friend is an excellent cook, and he feels the need to show up the sous chef that will be there. yum, competition. i think ill get like...3 hours of sleep now before i go to that.

(1 thought | live*for*me)

Thursday, May 1st, 2008
7:46 am - just because we use cheats doesn't mean were not smart...
what the fuck am i doing? i constantly feel like i'm searching...for what im not entirely sure. satisfaction?
I'm not particularly unhappy, but i'm not happy either. i'm just here, that's about it. I do enjoy talking to the new people i have been recently. Kinda a reality check with some of the conversations I've had, which is nice. 75% of the time I don't feel like too much of a loner.

I still don't know if i want to go back to school in the fall. don't really have much of a choice though, so i guess i will be...which also means ill probably fuck stuff up even more, thats how it seems to work with me. I need something or someone to devote myself to, something to make me feel real again. I should be passionate about something, right? Haven't found it yet, would work well if it were school.

I'm getting tired of my job as well. Let's see...one year mark? check. time for a new job =/
Seriously though, im sick of how they treat their employees, and just how the place is run in general, it just doesn't settle well with me at all.

i need to move back to milwaukee, I think that would help bring me out of this funk I'm in.

I haven't slept yet. Don't think I'm going to, I'm starting to like the feeling that accompanies being exhausted.

(3 thought | live*for*me)

Monday, April 14th, 2008
2:29 am
I'm still screaming.

why did i have to fucking ask?


(1 thought | live*for*me)

Saturday, April 12th, 2008
11:22 am
lol at a marriage proposal on the hardee's sign.

sorry samantha, your boyfriend loves the curly fries too much to not keep them as an integral part of your engagement.

(2 thought | live*for*me)

Sunday, April 6th, 2008
1:44 am
I want my life back.

(7 thought | live*for*me)

Thursday, March 13th, 2008
7:33 pm
Anyone want to go see One Republic on June 6th with me? Tickets go on sale Saturday, and I plan on getting a few.

(2 thought | live*for*me)

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
5:56 pm
you know, i really hate myself sometimes. like right now.

(3 thought | live*for*me)

Friday, January 25th, 2008
6:43 pm
I found new music, Menomena. They're pretty good.


Tuesday, January 8th, 2008
2:52 am

I want them for my birthday.


Monday, January 7th, 2008
11:39 pm
because im a huge nerd, and play a lot of wow, just thought id let you all know that we got leotheras the blind down tonight. which was super exciting, weve been working on him for awhile, tonight was pretty much our last night before we would move onto something else and come back later. so yay.

and...yeah. ive got the flu, which blows. still looking for a first shift job, one that wont make me want to blow my brains out, so if you know of any, tell me.

oh, my cell phone took a crap on me, should have a new one in a couple days. its bullshit cause my contract is up in april, and i dont have insurance on it. oh well, found a pretty cheap one on ebay that will serve its purpose until then.

um...what else...my birthday is coming up, all you assholes better be there. actual birthday is the 18th, want to go out to wolskis thursday at midnight, then im having a thing at buckheads on saturday. drink specials/no cover till 10pm if you mention my name. so come, bring friends, get me fucked up.

thats about it...whats up with you guys?

(8 thought | live*for*me)

Friday, January 4th, 2008
1:27 am
I got harassed by my grandmother today, shes getting pushy in her old age.

(2 thought | live*for*me)

Sunday, December 30th, 2007
5:23 pm
so, seriously, what is everyone doing for new years that i can weasel my way into? i forgot about it until a couple of days ago and haven't made any plans. oh, and something that wouldn't be completely awkward for me would be great too.

funny, cole and i break up, and hes home for the holidays. for the first time in 2 years. i like how that works. in the 5 years that ive been in a relationship on new years, ive never been with that special someone at midnight.

oh yeah, cole and i broke up. but i think most of you know that. he moved out his stuff a couple days ago. i was a mess for a couple days...but ok now. I'll live. we hadn't really talked for like 2 months. he would never stay home, was always gone.

i had some things pointed out to me by others about our relationship, and it was screwed up. i mean, coles a good guy...but a terrible person to be in a relationship with. there was constant making fun of me, and at first, it was all in good fun. but it never stopped. he claimed awhile ago that he was upset that i sat on my ass for a month or so last year, wasnt doing so great in school. i was working fucking 70 hours a week, and had full time school. got fired from my job for reasons im pretty sure are illegal, and ended up depressed as hell. was he supportive of me at all? tried to make me feel better? no, it was constant nagging and criticism. even while i was still working and doing school, i had to do everything, clean the apartment, take care of the cat, dishes, laundry, grocery shopping. i couldnt trust him to pay the bills because he would forget. he wouldn't do something unless i specifically asked, and i still had to nag him about it.

i was never near the top of his priority list, not even in the top five. I'm not saying that he couldn't see his family, or that he can't hang out with his friends. Far from that. However, spending pretty much every weekend alone sucks. Every night, he had something to do. Sure, we were both busy people, but can you blame me for wanting to spend a night with my boyfriend? I went to great lengths to make time for him, to take advantage of the little time I had to see him, but would be told that he had something else to do. I've pushed away family and friends for two years, trying to make time to see my boyfriend, and because, frankly, if I didn't, he wouldn't try either.

It still bugs me last year, when he didn't acknowledge Christmas, my birthday, or Valentine's day. He claimed that it was because he didn't have any money. Which is true. But come on, there's plenty of things to do that don't involve money. No 'merry christmas', 'happy birthday', or 'happy valentines day, i love you'. nothing.

there was no romance in our relationship at all. he just 'isnt that kind of guy.' it would have been nice to have some effort made at all though. i could care less about material things, a sweet gesture once in a while would be nice.

i spent two years doing his laundry, paying the bills, cleaning up after him, making plans for him, keeping track of birthdays for him. i was a mom, not a girlfriend.


(9 thought | live*for*me)

Saturday, December 29th, 2007
11:47 am
I need new books to read.

I like cheap thrills sometimes.

I loved the Dark Elf Triology, and the Sabriel trilogy (Garth Nix), but that is the extent of my fantasy book knowledge. Everything is Illuminated is one of my favorites. I also enjoyed Running With Scissors and Dry a lot.

Any suggestions?

EDIT: What are you guys doing for New Years? I havent found anything to do yet...

(8 thought | live*for*me)

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